Jun 19, 2013

Everything and Nothing



Details: Shorts / Urban Outfitters, Shirt / Courtesy of Kristen Solecki Artwork 
 Necklaces / Marble (gift) & Bird , 3 Layer Boots / Courtesy of Minnetonka

In over five years, I have.not.stopped. Literally, I haven't had time to do anything, except to keep going. I've always been an over achiever. Two/Three jobs, school, etc...I want to do everything, and I never say no to anything. Since I have been faced with a lot more down time lately, I have also been able to finally sit down, gather my thoughts and really think about a lot of things going on in my life. I sometimes wonder if this little break was necessary. I mean I never take a break on my own, so I almost wonder if this small (hopefully short hiatus) is the universe's way of telling me that I need to stop and take a look around.

New Jersey has been an on and off rainy/messy place these past few weeks which always means one thing when dealing with me. INTROSPECTIVE TIME. When I graduated college the first time, I was in a different place. I was pretty much a completely different human being (figuratively speaking of course). This time around I am much more motivated and certain that I know what I want. This time it's a little different because the ball is completely in my court. Before, it was get the degree, work in a hospital, done and done. This time around, I can choose different paths which will ultimately lead me somewhere I'm not sure I want to be. This is scary. More than one choice? Yikes. (Insert overwhelmed Maria face).

These past few weeks I have been so overcome with emotion, and an overload and lack of inspiration, honestly my mind is everywhere. I wake up some days and have nothing to say, and others I can't stop writing down ideas. As I slowly start to just let it all fall together the weights slowly ease off my shoulders, but I know that soon enough I will need to decide which path is the best for me. Just like everything else, I know I'll be fine, but it's the process that is the most interesting, it's all about how you get there, and then how badly you want it to work out. 

I know I have the drive, now if I could only find the perfect route. Then I'll be golden.

17 comments:

  1. First of all, you look gorgeous (as always). Second, deep breaths. :) I remember feeling exactly how you're feeling, and I promise it will all work out. Trust in the universe, let go a little, and see where you're led. (I can be bossy like this because I'm old and because we're sistas. ;)) Love you!

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  2. Lack of inspiration means you should take a little adventure/mini vacation :D

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  3. Your hair is to die for. So beautiful! And I love your glasses. Taking a break is something I wish I did after college - I started working full-time a week after graduation. Now it's hard enough just to get a short week of vacation. Enjoy and cherish this time of relaxation :)

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  4. you look amazing :D And we all need a little break sometimes! ♥

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  5. Breaks are always good! And I love that outfit (Minnetonkas look great in black!). :)

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  6. I have a similarly hectic lifestyle, so you're lucky you're getting some down time... yay! PS absolutely love your jewelry in these shots!

    Sarah @ Life As Always

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  7. You always look so adorable! I love your outfit today, the shirt is so lovely and I adore your boots!

    Have a great day,
    -Kati

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  8. loving this outfit, and am super obsessed with those Minnetonka's

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  9. lovely blog!
    http://saltskinned.blogspot.com.au

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  10. Sometimes you are already on the golden route, it's just need to be a little cleaned up to shine :) Perhaps a little time just for you will be good to straight things up on your mind. By the way, lovely shirt!
    Kisses
    Sofia G

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  11. i'm sure you'll make the right decisions:-) also, the t-shirt is really cute and i love the necklaces! x

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  12. Great post! I'm your new follower! :) I hope to see you in my blog sometimes. Thanks! Kisses from VV!!

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  13. Looves the necklaces!
    thank you for visiting my blog :)

    Hello :)
    Titaz
    www.stylieandfoodie.blogspot.com
    Twitter / IG / Pinterest : @tazty

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  14. I completely understand. Until last month, I haven't stopped going in 4 years. 4 jobs, college, extracurricular activities, social life, and everything else under the sun.

    Love those jean shorts!
    -Kate

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  15. Keep up the hard work lady, it pays off in the end :)
    This outfit is too cute, I look great in green and those boots are amazing!

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