Oct 24, 2011

It's Time For A Change.

Let me start off by saying that I went back and forth about writing this post...Up until yesterday I wasn't even sure I was going to just spill my guts, but this is it, I decided that even though it can be scary to be brutally honest, it usually works best in every situation. So what's my big news? I finally gave my two weeks. I will be leaving one of my part time jobs.

-quit

verb, quit or quit·ted, quit·ting, adjective

verb (used with object)
1. to stop, cease, or discontinue: She quit what she was doing to help me paint the house.
2. to depart from; leave (a place or person): They quit the city for the seashore every summer.
3. to give up or resign; let go; relinquish: He quit his claim to the throne. She quit her job.


So yes, I "quit my claim to the throne" I decided that the best thing for me to do is walk away at this point. As most of you know I have been working two jobs now for a little over 8 months. Although I enjoy the work that I do my one job has been completely throwing me off lately. For the past few months I have been feeling listless, and mediocre at best. I feel like I have been slowly drowning with no signs of anything getting better. Days dragged on and nothing seemed to change, except the downward spiral of my moods. I never wanted to just "fake it", and I felt like I was trying to be something I simply am not. I gave it a chance. I really did, but I have to be realistic and admit when things are just not working out.

I found myself struggling to get up and get moving, hating the weekends that lead into the week because I anticipated this dread that I have been experiencing. It's funny, you think you want something so bad, and you finally get it and it's just not at all what you expected...I am a bit disappointed, but I can't say that I didn't give it a chance. I don't regret doing it either because I think it made me realize a lot about myself and what I am capable of. I feel like every little thing we experience is almost like a blessing in disguise. Yes I have been extremely frustrated, run down and uninspired, but I realize now more than ever what I need to do to be doing, and how I have gone about it wrong this whole time.

So where do I go from here you ask? I'm not really sure. I am keeping my other part time job, as well as my per diem position. I also plan on making a lot more time for my blog and my shop, which are two things that have always been on the forefront of my mind, but unfortunately have had limited time for. I have a lot of exciting opportunities that are currently in the works, and as they come forth I promise I will fill you all in. Every one of you has contributed to the happiness this blog brings me, and although some days were frustrating, I can always come here, express myself, and receive such astounding feedback.

I am excited to finally be taking a step forward. There is no need to drown, when I can tread water and find my balance. This is one of the best decisions I have ever made, and I anticipate only good things to come. I am finally taking control of my own life and not living someone else's.
photos courtesy of weheartit.com

"Not owning up to our actions—this takes away our part in doing anything different. We simply remain stuck while we continue to complain and feel miserable in our status quo of negativity."

 “In the long run, we shape our lives, and we shape ourselves. The process never ends until we die.  And the choices we make are ultimately our own responsibility.”  ~Eleanor Roosevelt

13 comments:

  1. Congrats!!! I sorta had to do the smae thing at one point recently. You have to do what will make you happy! Whats the point of living life if your not happy...life is tough enough!!!
    Cheers,
    Messy
    www.shelleysarina.blogspot.com

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  2. I'm so happy for you! I too was working two jobs last year and found it to be just way way too much. I ended up quitting one and have never felt better. It takes a lot of courage to do what you did but I'm glad you did because it sounds like the right choice for you! xo, rv

    http://aneclecticheap.blogspot.com/

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  3. Congrats to you! I'm in a similar position right now... trying to decide if I need to walk away or try to wait it out. You have inspired me to put some serious thought into it since walking away might be the best decision possible! Thank you for posting this!

    -Morghen K
    http://kilwifey.blogspot.com

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  4. Congrats & good for you! It sounds like you're moving to a better place already, as the tone of this message you sounds happier about it all. I can imagine it wasn't an easy step to take but I'm 100% sure it will be much more rewarding in the day ahead. Way to go! :)

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  5. I am a firm believer that if we don't evolve, we die (or sink into mediocrity, which to me is the equivalent of death).
    It takes real courage to fight the good fight!
    It makes you very special.
    You better recognize. <3

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  6. i'm so glad you'll soon have this behind you. i know you'll find what you love and be able to do it, i'm just sorry you had to suffer through that hellhole first!

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  7. I'm so happy & excited for you! It's all uphill from here. "The best is yet to comeee." That was me singing to you! You're awesome Mars, I'm so glad this speed bump is now behind you. =)

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  8. Congrats!! I love the inspire photo! Great blog- following you :)

    www.lovelywanderlust.com

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  9. "It's funny, you think you want something so bad, and you finally get it and it's just not at all what you expected..."

    First of all, congratulations for having the courage to make a change in your life and pursue new things. I wish we could sit down together over ice cream and exchange stories about the above quote from this post. :-) This is an exciting time in your life. Enjoy!

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  10. Congrats. Lovely blog, if you want visit my blog and let me know if you want to follow and I will follow back

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  11. Good on you! It takes so much courage to leave what you know, best of luck to you! x

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  12. Maria, love the post! The most unexpected things can happen when you move forward with courage! Congrats to you for being bold and following your heart and dreams - and thank you for inspiring me too. ;)

    XOXO

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  13. best feeling ever!! congrats!

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